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Living My Life

For many years I have enjoyed the security of seclusion. Not having many friends to speak of and just being by myself was the way I preferred things to be even though I did not want things to be that way. I know that makes no sense but let me explain myself. I never wanted to be alone but would not do anything to change the situation because I had a tendency to alienate people no matter how hard I tried to be sociable. In other words I would piss people off in one way or another without even making much of an effort. Now I know that it sounds as if I am whining about nothing but I am just getting warmed up for the punchline. For the past several years I have been working on my assertiveness and even though it is not where I would like it to be, it is much better than it used to be. I have more acquaintances now than I ever have and I am much happier as a result. Now if only I can remember my courtesy and respectfulness then I will be ok. I guess a little self assessment along with a little desire and drive can make a world of difference in ones life.